9 Wonderful Years Together

I love you more today than yesterday. Happy Anniversary.

Michael's Letter to Joshua

Today is Joshua's 4th birthday. We are thrilled to celebrate with him. Michael took the time to write a letter to him on his blog. You can read the entire letter here.

Dear Joshua:

I have thought a long time what I would write to you on this, your 4th birthday. And maybe you think it’s weird that I’m writing it for the whole world to read, but my hope is that they can see what a great little boy you are, and that they will pray alongside of us for your continued health and pursuit of Christ.

I want you to know that I’m so proud to introduce you and for people to know I’m your daddy. You are learning so many good manners, how to be a good friend, and what it means to make good choices and be obedient to Jesus. Those things make me happy, and I treasure every day as one more I get to spend beside you.

Son, we frankly didn’t know how many birthdays we were going to have with you. I guess nobody ever does. But still yours feel very special. So on this, the day of your birth, I wanted to let you in on how I’m praying for you. So here goes, partner:

Can You Spot the Big Boy?

This weekend was a big one. My mom, Nana to the kids, and my nephew, Parker, came to visit. We went hiking at Radner Lake, ate pancakes at Puffy Muffin, and most importantly, celebrated Joshua's 4th birthday. 

Joshua's party was a pirate theme, so everybody got there with Joshua greeting them in his eye patch and bandana. He then ushered them into his pirate-ship blow-up swimming pool where they played for about an hour, followed by a ludicrous amount of chocolate cupcakes and even digging for buried treasure in a sand pit on the side of the yard. Huge success. Another year in the books.

Happy Birthday Joshua. We are so proud of our little man.

Clinic Report

This is the first time we have made a clinic visit from our new house. So, for our appointment at 8:30, we left the house at... get ready... 7:54. But wait, there's more - not only are we leaving an hour later, but Joshua and I went to Fido for breakfast and still had time to walk into the clinic by 8:30. Yes!

The appointment went really well. The little boy is not so little any more. In the past 4 weeks, he's grown half an inch and gained a pound. Joshua was a trooper just like always, and his counts were normal. In fact, they were high enough to where his doctor wanted to increase his chemo again. 

(Quick tutorial here - the amount of chemo fluctuates based on your blood counts because they want to keep the counts inside a certain range. If the blood counts are trending upward, your chemo goes up. Many times that upward trend is just due to the patient growing.)

Now, the only potential difficult news here is that the last time Joshua was up to this level of chemo, his counts bottomed out and we ended up in the hospital. So hopefully, with some of the other treatments meant to boost Joshua's immune system we have started, we can avoid that. All in all, a really nice day.

This also is a good time for a long overdue shout out to Michael's employer. He has been at Lifeway for about 19 months now, and he went to work there after Joshua was diagnosed. Between hospital stays, doctors appointments, and other cancer-related stuff, Michael has had to miss his share of work. And yet everyone there has treated us with grace. Now, hear me say that I know my husband makes sure to get his work done so he can miss work in those moments, but I also know an employer could be alot less forgiving than his is.

So thanks again to everybody for walking this road with us. Onward we go.

His Mercies Are New Every Morning

a picture from Joshua's first days in the hospital

From Michael's blog:

And since today I’m talking about it, here are a few reflections I have pretty much every 4 weeks:

1) I still can’t believe this is our life. It’s difficult to consider how many procedures, terms, and processes we now know by heart.

2) Joshua is freaking brave.

3) Andi has never known life without cancer affecting hers in a dramatic way.

4) The Lord’s mercies are new every morning. Or every 4 weeks for that matter. I remember staring down the end of that 3-year-gun and thinking about how long a period that is. And when you consider something like that, the temptation is one of anger and despair. And I’ve certainly had, and have, my share of that.

However, it’s really been pretty amazing to see the Lord’s grace in the simple reality of the fact that we’re still here. We got up all those mornings after Joshua was first diagnoses. And we got up when he was spending weeks in the hospital. And we’re still getting up now. The fact that we got up today is proof that the Lord’s mercies are new every morning.

And it’s also cool, and sad, to realize that when Jeremiah first penned those words, he was bearing witness to the destruction of his homeland. Everything he knew was going up in flames. But Jeremiah, the weeping prophet, was convinced in his Lamentations that the Lord’s faithfulness is great. So are we.

Read the entire blog here.

Molly Piper on Grief

Abraham and Molly Piper suffered the loss of their second daughter, Felicity Margaret. She was stillborn on September 22nd of last year. Molly has not only been overwhelmingly open and honest about her own experience, but has also used her experience to show us How to Help Your Grieving Friend. Her thoughts, given through a series of posts, are both practical and insightful. You can also read her guest appearance on Rocks in My Dryer.

Thanks Vitamin Z

ENT Update

I guess everyone gets to have a bad day. Thankfully, our ENT did have another one on Friday. Our visit actually went really well. Dr. Goudy was much more kind and considerate of us and of Joshua's health. He did see a need to do something more to help Joshua. He gave us a new medicine that may or may not help. Dr. Goudy also explained that he was trying to avoid surgery due to Joshua's compromised immune system, but would be willing to remove his adenoids if things did not improve with the new prescriptions. As alway, we'll keep you updated.

ENT, 21, and 4

Tomorrow, Joshua heads back to the ENT (Ear, Nose, Throat doctor). A few months ago Joshua's HEM-ONC doctors sent us to see the ENT. Dr. Zieber intended it to be a reassuring appointment to help ease us into another Fall with a bit more confidence. Sadly, the ENT we met with was less than compassionate. He was very competent and knew his field well, but he didn't seem very sympathetic to our situation. To make matters worse, the appointment last time required us to wait for 2 hours before seeing even a nurse. Then, another hour before we saw the ENT, himself. We are hoping that tomorrow's appointment goes much more smoothly and the doctor is able to understand our needs better.

Wednesday is Joshua regular monthly appointment, where he receives his intraveneous chemo. For those of you keeping track, it has been 21 months since Joshua's diagnosis. The magic number is 36. 36 months of treatment. It is encouraging that 21 and 36 seem relatively close together. I remember the days when 3 years felt like an eternity. It is just good to feel like there is an end in sight. 

Now 4. On Tuesday, it will have been exactly 4 months since our last hospital stay. We have not stayed out of the hospital longer than 4 months throughout Joshua's treatment so this also will be a milestone. This is one of the reasons the ENT appointment is so crucial. If he can help our HEM-ONC doctors to keep Joshua healthy, we can continue to have long stretches of healthy, hospital-free days. Please pray to that end with us.

Here are some photos of one of those kind of days.

Bitter Hardship and God's Glory

Once again I am stealing from someone else's blog. This one is from Ashley. The message Sunday at Grace Community Church was amazing. Take the time to listen to it this week. This is Ashley's take on it. Basically, she beat me to it and frankly did a better job than I could have. To read the entire blog go here. My thoughts are at the bottom.

God shows up in hardship. This is contradictory to this world's idea of, "if I have enough faith, this will all work out." We are often afraid to look at real suffering. We think sin and suffering reflects poorly on God and that we need to protect His reputation. Maybe I just don't have enough faith. Moses didn't try to hide the hardship. He stared it straight in the face with no fear of embarrassing God. He simply records the hardship and let's God's glory appear in due time. The reality is that God's glory is often displayed most in the most difficult things of life.

The pastor took us back to the passage in Exodus where the people of God were experiencing oppression. The interesting part of the story lies in Genesis where God told his people to go to Egypt. We might be tempted to look at the story and say, "Surely Satan is behind this oppression." But no, God is. God led them to this land and God brought them under this oppression for a purpose. The point was not the hardship. The point was their obedience to follow God into the unknown. Through that oppression He birthed in them a hunger in their soul for a land of freedom, the "Promised Land." Canaan was on the other side of that oppression.

Scott went on to remind us that no place on this earth is unaffected by sin. Even the promised land became a place of idolatry. Sin resides in every human heart. Life will inevitably disappoint us. Even the relationships that we think are so "perfect" will fail us. They can never be perfect. Not on this side of heaven. Praise the Lord that nothing on this Earth can truly satisfy the longing on our hearts that only eternity can fill.

The last 18 months have been a picture bitter hardship in our lives. Joshua's cancer is the affect of a world filled with sin and God can handle it. He has and is handling it. He has heard our cries, remembered us, and knows each of us (Ex 2:24) It amazes me that we can already look back and see the ways that he has revealed His glory through this. The Isrealites had to wait for 400 years to see His redemption. Obviously, I would rather our hardship not include Joshua's pain, but I am thankful that we are not facing this without the One that hears us and knows us.

The Big Read

I found this post on a blog I stumbled across called Thoughts From a Retro Overthinker. I am making it my own. The Big Read asked people to nominate their favorite books in order to find the most loved book. Below is the list. The fun thing to do is to put in bold all the ones you've read. Someone estimated that the average adult has read 6 of the 100. I'm going to see how I did. There is the original link...

http://www.bbc.co.uk/arts/bigread/top100.shtml

And here are the "rules."

1) Look at the list and bold those you have read. (Bold doesn't show up for me, so I will put a *)
2) Italicise those you intend to read.
3) Put a ! next to the books you LOVE.

1. *The Lord of the Rings, JRR Tolkien
2. *!Pride and Prejudice, Jane Austen
3. His Dark Materials, Philip Pullman
4. The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy, Douglas Adams
5. *Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire, JK Rowling
6. *!To Kill a Mockingbird, Harper Lee
7. Winnie the Pooh, AA Milne
8. Nineteen Eighty-Four, George Orwell
9. *!The Lion, the Witch and the Wardrobe, CS Lewis
10. Jane Eyre, Charlotte Brontë
11. Catch-22, Joseph Heller
12. *Wuthering Heights, Emily Brontë
13. Birdsong, Sebastian Faulks
14. Rebecca, Daphne du Maurier
15. The Catcher in the Rye, JD Salinger
16. The Wind in the Willows, Kenneth Grahame
17. *Great Expectations, Charles Dickens
18. *Little Women, Louisa May Alcott
19. Captain Corelli's Mandolin, Louis de Bernieres
20. War and Peace, Leo Tolstoy
21. Gone with the Wind, Margaret Mitchell
22. *Harry Potter And The Philosopher's Stone, JK Rowling
23. *Harry Potter And The Chamber Of Secrets, JK Rowling
24. *!Harry Potter And The Prisoner Of Azkaban, JK Rowling
25. *The Hobbit, JRR Tolkien
26. Tess Of The D'Urbervilles, Thomas Hardy
27. Middlemarch, George Eliot
28. A Prayer For Owen Meany, John Irving
29. *The Grapes Of Wrath, John Steinbeck
30. Alice's Adventures In Wonderland, Lewis Carroll
31. The Story Of Tracy Beaker, Jacqueline Wilson
32. One Hundred Years Of Solitude, Gabriel García Márquez
33. The Pillars Of The Earth, Ken Follett
34. David Copperfield, Charles Dickens
35. *Charlie And The Chocolate Factory, Roald Dahl
36. *Treasure Island, Robert Louis Stevenson
37. A Town Like Alice, Nevil Shute
38. Persuasion, Jane Austen
39. Dune, Frank Herbert
40. Emma, Jane Austen
41. Anne Of Green Gables, LM Montgomery (Seeing the movies 100's of times doesn't count?)
42. *Watership Down, Richard Adams
43. The Great Gatsby, F Scott Fitzgerald
44. The Count Of Monte Cristo, Alexandre Dumas
45. Brideshead Revisited, Evelyn Waugh
46. Animal Farm, George Orwell
47. A Christmas Carol, Charles Dickens
48. Far From The Madding Crowd, Thomas Hardy
49. Goodnight Mister Tom, Michelle Magorian
50. The Shell Seekers, Rosamunde Pilcher
51. The Secret Garden, Frances Hodgson Burnett
52. Of Mice And Men, John Steinbeck
53. The Stand, Stephen King
54. Anna Karenina, Leo Tolstoy
55. A Suitable Boy, Vikram Seth
56. *The BFG, Roald Dahl
57. Swallows And Amazons, Arthur Ransome
58. Black Beauty, Anna Sewell
59. Artemis Fowl, Eoin Colfer
60. Crime And Punishment, Fyodor Dostoyevsky
61. Noughts And Crosses, Malorie Blackman
62. Memoirs Of A Geisha, Arthur Golden
63. *A Tale Of Two Cities, Charles Dickens
64. The Thorn Birds, Colleen McCollough
65. Mort, Terry Pratchett
66. The Magic Faraway Tree, Enid Blyton
67. The Magus, John Fowles
68. Good Omens, Terry Pratchett and Neil Gaiman
69. Guards! Guards!, Terry Pratchett
70. *Lord Of The Flies, William Golding
71. Perfume, Patrick Süskind
72. The Ragged Trousered Philanthropists, Robert Tressell
73. Night Watch, Terry Pratchett
74. *Matilda, Roald Dahl
75. Bridget Jones's Diary, Helen Fielding
76. The Secret History, Donna Tartt
77. The Woman In White, Wilkie Collins
78. Ulysses, James Joyce
79. Bleak House, Charles Dickens
80. Double Act, Jacqueline Wilson
81. The Twits, Roald Dahl
82. I Capture The Castle, Dodie Smith
83. *Holes, Louis Sachar
84. Gormenghast, Mervyn Peake
85. The God Of Small Things, Arundhati Roy
86. Vicky Angel, Jacqueline Wilson
87. Brave New World, Aldous Huxley
88. Cold Comfort Farm, Stella Gibbons
89. Magician, Raymond E Feist
90. On The Road, Jack Kerouac
91. The Godfather, Mario Puzo
92. The Clan Of The Cave Bear, Jean M Auel
93. The Colour Of Magic, Terry Pratchett
94. The Alchemist, Paulo Coelho
95. Katherine, Anya Seton
96. Kane And Abel, Jeffrey Archer
97. Love In The Time Of Cholera, Gabriel García Márquez
98. Girls In Love, Jacqueline Wilson
99. The Princess Diaries, Meg Cabot
100. Midnight's Children, Salman Rushdie

Many of these are due to Michael and I reading together (Awwe) before we had kids. We may need to pick that back up again. Obviously, I have a ton more reading to do. How about you? How did you do?

Andi's Books

Just in case you missed Michael's weekend post, check it out here. It's worth the extra click.

The Couponizer

If you have spent much time with me in the last 4 months, you have probably gotten an earful about all that I am saving using coupons. My sister-in-law, Jenny, first convinced me to try it and then I went way overboard, turning it into a game. My competitive nature came out even stronger than normal and I started reading blogs and websites to learn more. One of my favorite blogs is MoneySavingMom. Crystal Paine is a champion couponer and all around financial guru. 

Every now and then, Crystal will post a giveaway for a featured product or book. This week it was The Couponizer and I WON! Right now I use envelopes that are already falling apart. Basically, this going revolutionize my shopping experience. This also confirms that I am truly a soccer mom, just without the mini-van.

I don't plan to make our blog about my couponing, but I thought I would share the good news.

Abraham Was No Dummy

I am working through the book Feast by Derek Leman. It is a Threads study about Jewish traditions. Currently, I am reading about Yom Kippur, the day of atonement. I have been knocked over learning more about the sacrificial system, specifically Christ as the sacrifice, once for all. This morning I read this:

Hebrews 10:1 Since law has [only] a shadow of the good things to come, and not the actual form of those realities, it can never perfect the worshipers by the same sacrifices they continually offer year after year.

The law is not only a shadow. The law is a shadow of good things to come. Imagine being trapped in a dangerous alley and needing rescue. You hope your rescuer will come, then you see his shadow coming from around  the corner. You suddenly have hope and peace. That is what the Law does. It was and is a shadow of good things to come. Yom Kippur is not an empty picture, a mere trifle. Yom Kippur is a beautiful image, a wonderful sign of hope that would come.

As Abraham, Isaac, Jacob and all of their descendants observed Yom Kippur, they weren't only sacrificing in the Holy of Holies because the law said they should. They were sacrificing because they believed in the sacrifice that is once for all.

Thankfully I worship with the knowledge of Christ, but studying Yom Kippur hopefully leads me to mourn my sin and live with a contrite spirit. 

Getting Settled and the 4th

The kids are very quickly getting used to the new house. It took Andi a few days to get the lay of the place. The poor girl kept thinking she had lost us if we left the room. She just didn't know the house well enough to find us. Now that is behind us and we are spending most of our time outside. We have done some yard work and Joshua has developed a smooth car system for driveway and has turned our fort into a pirate ship. Oh, to be 3 again. The imagination never stops.

Also, after nearly 4 years in Nashville, we went downtown to watch the big show. We weren't super close, but it was impressive nonetheless. Here's a few shots of us getting ready for the fun. To see great pictures of the Nashville fireworks, visit my friend, Amanda's blog here.